Egoism has been typically seen and referenced as a negative trait in a human being. It's been viewed far too negative, it has actually lost, in what I think, it's real use: to boost one's confidence.
I say that it's ego which shapes us silently and discreetly to become a better and stronger person in many various aspects. However, ego's like enhancer pills. You take them and it enhances your performance. You take them in overdose, you're just destroying yourself. I give myself ego boost most of the time. It makes me believe that I can do something I used to think it's impossible.
In recent weeks, I've used these egos stored in me to overcome various feelings I have, especially nervousness & anxiety, during Jam&Hop and the CVD Talentime performance respectively. And it has worked to my greatest advantage. Though I've been dying to fulfill a task which I have not been able to accomplish since the years in JC.
But guys, sometimes you just get underestimated too much and you get left out & pushed around. I'm just as great as anyone out there and I'm ready for whatever shit I'll receive. The fact that I'm always pushed around for my ways and my abilities is clearly pathetic. I deserve more than just humble apologies and excuses. I'm always looked down upon for my actions that I make. Whether from my dad, my mom, my friends or anyone.
It's time I putting my egos to good use. I'm going to change and prove you people how underestimated you have been perceiving me to be. The nicest guys always finishes last.
And I'll make sure it'll be worth the wait.
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